Imagine waking up to this sweet face every morning? I could not drag myself out of bed this morning even though I have the excitement of going to Hawaii in less than 4 days. It's that all-around crappy feeling. I pulled myself out of bed and could hear my little girl cry-talking to herself in the other room. I opened the door to behold this adorable face look up at me from over the crib railing. How did I get so lucky? That smile made it all worth dragging my cruddy bum out of bed.
Jack and I talked last night again about starting my Close to My Heart business. I'm so frustrated. Ever since I announced I was planning on doing it, so many people have approached me with an interest in buying from me. I should have kept my mouth shut. I'm hoping we can work out the financial part of it after we get back from Hawaii. Please bless that this thing gets started before Christmas!
It's funny because starting my own scrapbooking consultant business was born of my desire to stay home with my daughter. I know that I can go anywhere with it. At the same time, a small fear popped up last night as my husband and I talked about it. What if all these people who say they are so interested, when it comes right down it, aren't so interested? What if the only person buying things from me is me? What if we kill ourselves trying to get this $150 put together only to have me fail miserably, leaving me feel like it was a big waste of money and effort? I could drive myself crazy thinking about all the negative things, and I keep telling myself that I need to just take that leap of faith, try it and go forward with as much ambition, motivation, and dedication as I've been telling myself I need to have all these years. I doing it for Maddy but I'm doing it mostly for me. My vow - I will not disappoint myself!!!
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